BARKER, JUSTINE DANIELLE

Justine can be seen as quite a depressed person at times due to the bullying she undergoes. She is a friendly, outgoing person and enjoys spending time with her friends, gossiping, playing the drums, showing up, driving her mini cooper around, tea and acting British. Her friends love her for that as she is more outgoing then what she use to be due to her being happy with herself. She is gaining a more positive outlook on life loves the people who are supporting her. She always helps people out when she can due to her past and being nasty to other people. She is often in and out relationships due to her thinking when she becomes a female no one will be interested in her.

She has issues with her self esteem due to the bullying, she knows people accept her for what she is however the bullying is hurtful because these people use to be her friends. She cannot stand criticism and when she watches things fail she gets over emotional, she is quick to fall in love which often leads to being heart broken. She often binges in ice cream when feeling upset, she hates crying and if her brother isn't there she has no on to talk to as she thinks her parents do not understand. She thinks she is weak even though she has shown strength in coming out and cannot wait to leave school as she hates it there.

Justine is a very nice person now and will socialise with everyone, she is often centre of attention because she came out which is both a good and a bad thing. She loves listening to music and playing the drums as it means she can be in her own little world away from all the hatred. She loves meeting new people and that is why she strips because it allows it. She is an easy going person but can come across as quite shy when you get to know her. She will always be a loyal friend to the end and you are guaranteed to have a space in her heart.

Justine was born in Newport and has lived there all her life. She has an older brother who is 32 and these two get on like a house on fire. Justine was originally born a male called Justin. Justin grew up like every other normal boy his age, playing with action man, climbing trees and playing sports. He was average at school and enjoyed the outdoors a lot. He began learning the drums and the guitar. When puberty hit, as Justin he experiment with dating girls, he was fairly popular and the boy everyone wanted to be with. At 14 he began to get depressed, his parents were unsure to why but he had some idea, he began to find men attractive and it got really difficult in the changing rooms when he couldn't help to stare at the the other boys. He did not understand why it was happening, after all his friends were homophobic and he had joined in with them. Justin tried denying it and hiding his attraction to the same gender.

Justin managed to get his first boyfriend at 14, he tried keeping it hidden and went the full way with this boy as he done to other girls. He knew he was not straight but hid it until his secret game out, he went from being a popular person to being dirt, kids could be cruel. Justin was taking out of school after Justin told them what had happened, his brother was fully supportive of him. When he turned 15 he began experimenting with womens make up, he liked how he looked in it as well as later on dressing as a woman. He tried to hide that as well and only his brother knew. At 16 Justin started feeling very uncomfortable at being a boy, he didn't like the way his body was changing, the fact his voice was going deeper, the hair which was growing and the start of facial hair. He hated it so much that he use to save the hair off, his arms and legs. He knew something was definitely not right at that point and he began to feel more comfortable in womans clothing.

Justin began researching on the internet about what was going on and saw a few other people shared his story. He felt down and depressed as he knew he was the wrong gender, he knew he should not be a man and was scared to tell his parents. His brother had moved out and he decided to talk to him about it. Justin confessed to his brother how he had felt and it had been for several months and how he use to dress in his mothers clothing, wear make up and so forth. His brother respected what Justin had to say, he was the one to tell the parents. The parents were surprisingly supportive of his decision and decided that he should go see a therapist to make sure if this was something he was sure with and not just a stage in his life. The next day Justin declared that he is now a female and for the family to refer to her as Justine.

Justine started school again at 16, she was teased and bullied which led to self harming and struggling that was until she started making friends with others who were LGBT. The told her this is how they felt back when she was Justin and use to bully them, these people were now her best friends. She still got bullied but it was easier with her friends there to support her and to look after her. She got her ears pierced at 17, she likes to look more like a tom boy then a girly girl. She likes to wear dresses on occasion, but prefers the "tom boy look" due to being so use to it however she will wear tight clothing, she likes to style her hair and get help from her friends. Justine became a stripper when she turned 18 because she wanted to show people of Newport that she was not ashamed of what she was, she is taking supplements to make her more female, still undergoes therapy and is looking forward to the day she becomes a full woman. She stands for womens and LGBT rights in Newport.

Till's room was lit with candles which gave the room a darkened look. The clock struck 12 and Till fell to his knees and began to pray, "Dear Lord please forgive me for my sins." He mumbled to himself, he began saying his standard prayers, "Lord I will find a punishment for my ways. Help me change." This was all honesty leaving his lips, "Take me away from temptation." Till stood up from his knees and went into a draw where a whip was, he removed his shirt and knelt again, he began to whip himself as a punishment. He needed to be punished for his crimes against the church, "Eins, Zwei, Drei..." He began to count in his native tongue, feeling the whip lick the skin of his bare back however it did not have the desired effect and instead began to turn him on.

Till started hitting himself harder and began screaming, he was getting more aroused with each strike and felt a warm liquid pouring down his back. He needed some form of release, he forgot why he was doing it. Someone entered his room and Till turned his hungry eyes towards the boy, he knew what he was going to do however he would have to play it easy, weaker minds are easier to dominate. Till reminded himself as he smiled at the boy, "Young man please enter, you are only disturbing my moment of prayer." He snapped as the boy looked scared. Till got up and placed his shirt back on, slightly annoyed for the fact he was turned on and someone interrupted him. He went over to his desk and poured a drink for himself and took a seat, "Well?" He snapped as he took a sip of the liquid, if this boy didn't hurry up he was going to force himself onto him and not even the Lord could stop him.

Steph; GMT; years; Till and Richard